I write this as a confession of sorts. you see it was in 1980 when i was a
teenager that i had my first experience with a succubus. and i change my life
forever. i had a normal childhood. was interested in girls. as well as the
outdoors. i come from a family that was christian but were mixed denominations
catholic and methodist. my parents believed in the paranormal. but not to a
point of being superstitious. as well as being tolerant and open minded. i had
learned from my mother that on her side of the family they were sensitives.
that is they could see or feel ghosts.
as i said my story began in 1980.
around the fall time. i was in high school. i was haunted by dreams of a
beautiful woman with long dark hair. and yellow green eyes. i didn’t think much
of the dreams. i figured that any guy had them. that is until the dream became
real. it was then i having paranormal experiences. for each night i was visited
by a presence. at first i thought the family pet a half german shepherd; half
lab retriever was crawling into bed with me. but when i turn to scold her. she
wasn’t there. and as the time went by. the presence became bolder and layed next
to me. and the dreams that i had became sexual in nature. being a teenager and
always thinking about sex. i took it as a blessing. and as time went by. i
welcome this presence. and learned she was the woman in the dream.
i never
told my parents about it. although i suspect they knew. but never pressured me
about it. as long as i was happy. that’s what mattered.
i had once brought
up about spirits. and can they have sex? i had asked. my father told me about
the succubus. that the church always believed these entities were demonic in
nature in the old days. but later ruled them out as being that of the mind.
my mother on the other hand pretty much knew the reality of spirits.
because her family were involved with the paranormal. she had said that at times
a spirit would return to a love one. and be with that person.
but no
girlfriend that i knew died. and i didn’t bring up the subject anymore. anyway i
was enjoying it. this spirit relationship was wonderful. because of her i became
interested in shamanism and other Paths of the occult , mysticism, and the
paranormal.
my relationship with my succubus continued into my adult life.
and it never affected my social life. not in a negative way. she was there when
a relationship ended. always offering comfort. however my relationship with her
started to die down in the 90s. and completely ended after my parents died in
1999.
then around 2009 i found a book entitled sexual alchemy by donald
tyson. and learned you could actually summon spirits for sex. i read the book
with such hunger. triggered by loneliness. and a need of companionship. at this
time i had a streak of bad luck in money as well as love.
so i set out to
perform a simple ritual based on what the book taught. and had drawn a sigil of
the spirit whom i wish to contact with.
so on a friday night i performed the
ritual. at first nothing happened. so i closed the ritual. and sat on the bed.
and meditated.
no sooner than i did this. i felt a warm presence beside me.
on my right side. and in my mind i saw a swirling cloud of light. and the figure
of a woman appearing besides me. it was the same one whom visited me when i was
a teenager. and in my vision she embraced me. and then was gone. later that
night as i laid in my bed. she appeared to me as an apparition on top of my bed.
later i learned that she had several names. however she wanted me to know
her as meek. she and i had sex that night. and from that point on i felt
complete. and i started back on my Path again which that of Shamanism and Middle
Eastern Magick.
it has been 5 years since she has returned in my life. later
i learned she was centered in the Middle East in the past. and she is Qarinah
Djinneyeh. and she lead me to other types of djinn as well as other types of
spirits such as fae, dragons, demonesses, angels, wraith, vampires, doujunah
,to name a few.
i love her and them very much.
