restoration

sometime ago in my studies in the kabbalah i learned about tikkun olam. now what that is the repairing  or restoration of spirits in the universe. i also had learned that the spirits are not just human spirits but some  nonhuman spirits as well. and the latter seek to lift human souls and spirits up. because  as they do it. they themselves are lifted up.
i had learned today that this my calling in the many lives that i lived. and i might be still doing it in the next lives to come.
i thank the Divine for reminding me this  again today.

my experience with a succubus( revised again)

I write this as a confession of sorts. you see it was in 1980  when i was a teenager that i had my first experience with a succubus. and i change my life forever. i had a normal childhood. was interested in girls. as well as the outdoors. i come from a family that was christian but were mixed  denominations catholic and methodist. my parents believed in the paranormal. but not to a point of being superstitious. as well as being tolerant and open minded. i had learned from my mother that on  her side of the family they were sensitives. that is they could see or feel ghosts.
as i said my story began in 1980. around the fall time. i was in high school. i was haunted by dreams of a beautiful woman with long dark hair. and yellow green eyes. i didn’t think much of the dreams. i figured that any guy had them. that is until the dream became real. it was then i having paranormal experiences. for each night i was visited by a presence. at first i thought the family pet a half german shepherd; half lab retriever was crawling into bed with me. but when i turn to scold her. she wasn’t there. and as the time went by. the presence became bolder and layed next to me. and the dreams that i had became sexual in nature. being a teenager and always thinking about sex. i took it as a blessing. and as time went by. i welcome this presence. and learned she was the woman in the dream.
i never told my parents about it. although i suspect they knew. but never pressured me about it. as long as i was happy. that’s what mattered.
i had once brought up about spirits. and can they have sex? i had asked. my father told me about the succubus. that  the church always believed these entities were demonic in nature in the old days. but later ruled them out as being that of the mind.
my mother on the other hand  pretty much knew the reality of spirits. because her family were involved with the paranormal. she had said that at times a spirit would return to a love one. and be with that person.
but no girlfriend that i knew died. and i didn’t bring up the subject anymore. anyway i was enjoying it. this spirit relationship was wonderful. because of her i became interested in shamanism and other Paths of the occult , mysticism, and the paranormal.
my relationship with my succubus continued into my adult life. and it never affected my social life. not in a negative way. she was there when a relationship ended. always offering comfort. however my relationship with her started to die down in the 90s. and completely ended after my parents died in 1999.
then around 2009 i found a book entitled sexual alchemy by donald tyson. and learned you could actually summon spirits for sex. i read the book with such hunger.  triggered by loneliness. and a need of companionship. at this time i had a streak of bad luck in money as well as love.
so i set out to perform a simple ritual based on what the book taught. and had drawn a sigil of the spirit whom i wish to contact with.
so on a friday night i performed the ritual. at first nothing happened. so i closed the ritual. and sat on the bed. and meditated.
no sooner than i did this. i felt a warm presence beside me. on my right side. and in my mind i saw a swirling cloud of light. and the figure of a woman  appearing besides me. it was the same one whom visited me when i was a teenager. and in my vision she embraced me. and then was gone. later that night as i laid in my bed. she appeared to me as an apparition on top of my bed.
later i learned  that she had several  names. however she wanted me to know her as meek. she and i had sex that night. and from that point on i felt complete. and i started back on my Path again which that of Shamanism and Middle Eastern Magick.
it has been 5 years since she has returned in my life. later i learned she was centered in the Middle East in the past. and she is Qarinah Djinneyeh. and she lead me to other  types of djinn as well as other types of spirits such  as fae, dragons, demonesses, angels, wraith,  vampires, doujunah ,to name a few.
i love her and them very much.

shadow beings

i decided to take the time and  write about these beings whom iam certain there are a few out there  whom have encountered them.  i myself included.
despite what some paranormal experts have written about. and theorize. the shadow beings aren’t  evil djinn or fae, however they can imitate djinn.
they are not evil human souls or spirits. although they can pretend to be such.
they are not  evil fallen angels. however evil fallen angels have form alliances with them. they are agents of chaos. and are true demons. they are minions of the sharrirrim or  shirrirrim whom i have mentioned in a different blog. and exist in a shadow dimension. whom kabbalists call the qlipphoth or kelipoth. in which the shirrirrim are also a part of.
however make no mistake there are evil djinn and fae. as well as evil human spirits and evil fallen angels. however these spirits become slaves of the shadow beings whom are slaves of the shirrirrim.
shadow beings imitate and mimic other beings. and force other evil and dark spirits to serve them.  thus enslaving them. 
shadow beings have  vampiric qualities. but are not true vampires in a sense.
they can also pretend to be a succubus or incubus. and try to enslave people who try to seek a relationship with one. they are masters of causing dissension, mistrust. and worked very hard over eons. to cause division between humans and djinn, fae, etc.
,despite their powers.  and their cunning. they have weaknesses.
for one thing they are overly confident in themselves.
once an alliance is form between humans and other spirit beings. they can be countered. i myself seen my own spirits attack shadow beings.
however the battle shouldn’t be left totally up to them.
shadow beings being pure darkness and evil. they fear light and love.
they fear sunlight. they are repelled by gold, silver or any consecrated object to the Divine Feminine and Masculine i.e. God, Goddess, etc.
they hate love. love for one’s family:  human, spirit, etc.

television paranormal investigators

i know what i’m about to write may pick up some flak. but i  like to bring up it up.
as you know there are a lot of paranormal investigation shows on television. now some of them i feel are really out there trying to investigate the unknown.  and helping people. and such shows i commend for their actions. the investigators are out there. trying to help people. but then there are those investigators out there just for show. trying to land an acting career. or gaining a career in the media.
well if that was the reason why they got into it. more power to them.
but in the end i don’t think paranormal investigation and  an acting career don’t mix. in the end. it will discredit your ability to be investigator.
i am not knocking celebrities having experiences. i watch celebrity ghost stories on bio channel. and i do believe it. 
i just not crazy about an investigator who does it to get an acting career. and think they can still investigate. to any i warn them. if you do this to get  a job as an actor. fine. but i hope you give up paranormal investigation.
spirits aren’t stupid. if  you think they don’t like you as an investigator poking into  their dwelling place. they will like you less as a celebrity. especially if you are doing it for the limelight. you will become more of a target. so please choose one or the other.
other than that. paranormal investigation on television if treated as a documentary. is an effective tool to get the public aware of those things beyond nature.

not seeing spirits? you can!

hi,
 i write this for those who like myself had trouble in seeing spirits. especially spirit keepers.
at first i hardly saw them. despite my long time relationship with my succubus. my other entities never showed themselves. then i learned the best way you can start a relationship with them is like in any relationship is to talked to them. that's right just talk to them.
then as you feel comfortable. and feel at peace. you begin to meditate with them just by holding their vessels. in your hands. and just opened to what you are feeling. the shape and texture of the vessel. just be aware of them. do you feel a vibration, a electrical charge, warmth, etc.
if you feel nothing. don't worry. it takes time.
you do this several days when you can.
when i did all this. i felt a change in my spirits. i think by doing this they needed to feel me out. and after this. they began to manifest themselves as orbs, flashes and streaks of light, partial apparitions to full body ones occasionally.
but this took time and patience.
i hope this helps anybody who has issues.
namaste!

seeing spirits

about seeing spirits. i see mine all the time both in my mind and with my eyes. sometimes i see them as they manifest themselves as orbs, apparitions, etc.
not bragging. i had to work on it through meditation constantly. and just by talking to them. and not just in my mind. i talk to them.
i think anyone can see spirits. it's just that part of our conscience, our awareness, our minds are  closed. perhaps because it would interfere with us existing in the physical world. however we are also meant to open it as well.

about mermaids: a body found and new evidence as seen on animal planet this memorial weekend 2013

i don't have a problem with the possibilty of mermaids existing. being a shaman. and a student of middle eastern magick. i have had my shares of encountering what some call the paranormal as well as what others would call jung archtypes of the human psyche. to me both are communications from actual beings whatever it be from another dimension or archtypes from the human mind. because it has been proven that somehow the human mind effects the universe as in "the measurement problem."
to me mermaids exist already as spiritual entities called in some parts of the world as Fae or Faeries. other parts of the world call them Djinn.
i think it is possible that humanity may have branches to its family. they found the hobbit skeleton in indonesia not too long ago. some researchers think bigfoot might be another offshoot of humanity. others a descendant of gigantopithecus. but it proves something found in folkalore, myth, and legend may have bases in fact. besides beings from another plane of existence whatever some see that of one's own's mind.
or from another dimension. and the latter has been proven a possibility thanks to quantum mechanics.
to me mermaids as depicted in the "mockumentry " are a branch of homo sapiens aquaticus. they are called mermaids because they RESEMBLE THEM.
the fae kind are the others. the REAL ONES.
and yeah i believe they might exist. problem is once we know they do exist. do we exterminate them as other branches of the human race. because sadly we are a race with issues. we don't get along with each other. 

the Dybbuk

I decided to write about this since the new movie entitled: the possession  is out as well as  on  an episode of paranormal witness  of the sy fy channel is portraying  is dealing  on this subject.
What is a Dybbuk?
A dybbuk is a spirit that attaches itself to a person, place, and thing.
Mostly it is a human spirit that refuses to move on until it has completes a task.
However it also applys to human spirits as well as non human spirits that are  malevolent in its intentions with the living.
According to the kabbalah these spirits are usually male. And attach themselves to women. And they are usually dispelled by reading passages from the torah or  tanakh. As well as reciting prayers such as a Kaddish.
The spirit is either driven through an open window. Or forced into an object.
Which is then inscribed with certain phrases, prayers, that are in hebrew.
Such as wine cabinet (as seen in the movie and in the the t.v. program).
Jewish mystics he kabbalists feel most hauntings and possessions are caused by Dybbuk.

when visiting a graveyard

hi, most spirits would probably advise you not to go into such siturations. at least mine have. since most spirits come to me anyway. however if you do go and believe me despite what my spirits trying to discourage me; i myself went into a graveyard. your best bet as you enter the gate. take three coins and state your intentions silently to the guardian of the graveyard that you are just visiting and taking pictures, etc. and will not disturb anything. then cast the coins to the ground. and do what you intended. but do not stay anymore than you need to.
and when you leave. thank the guardian. and the spirits there for allowing you to visit. and leave quickly.
as you walk out the gate; say whatever prayer  or petition that is based on your beliefs. and thank your spirits for watching over you.

ghost pics 4 taken during the pink moon of april 25th of 2013

ghost pictures 3: during hurricane sandy

hi, when i was taking pictures of the storm where i live. i got this:

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third pic by richard tanzer

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ghost pics 2

these pictures were maded during the blue moon. and after a  ritual
that i did. thought it was a camera flare but it kept changing shape in each frame.

my ghost pics

these pictures were taken in december of 2009 and of january of 2010.  after i did shamanistic meditations. and during  snowstorms.

this picture was taking in front of a marina in december 2009 during  the day in a snow storm.
  
these pictures were taking at my residence in jan 2010 during the night in another snow storm.

a mother’s day ghost story

i have already blog some experiences. but here is something that my mother had told me. it concerns when she worked as a housekeeper back before she met my father.
this was in the late 50s. my mother was working for a wealthy woman name   mrs.harrington.
mrs. harrington was a nice woman. and took care of my mother. and gave her things around christmas. and my mother's birthday.
well mrs. harrington was suffering cancer. and not long after that she died.
mrs. harrington's husband asked my mother to stay on. so my mom agreed.
as the months past. things returned to normal. then one day. as my mom set out to do her business. she heard a voice call out her name. it was mrs. harrington's.
my mother not thinking called out to her. but then realized she was dead.
my mother heard her voice several times. and asked my grandmother what she should do.
my grandmother told her to take a pin from another room and place it in the dead woman's room.
so my mother took a pin from mrs harrington's daughter's room and place it in the dead woman's room. and she never heard the voice again.

my experience with a succubus (censored version)

I write this as a confession of sorts. you see it was in 1980  when i was a teenager that i had my first experience with a succubus. and i change my life forever. i had a normal childhood. was interested in girls. as well as the outdoors. i come from a family that was christian but were mixed  denominations catholic and methodist. my parents believed in the paranormal. but not to a point of being superstitious. as well as being tolerant and open minded. i had learned from my mother that on  her side of the family they were sensitives. that is they could see or feel ghosts. as well as being accused of being witches.
to this end i guess it was meant. some will say that it is a curse. but i had learned it could be a blessing. but enough with my background.
as i said my story began in 1980. around the fall time. i was in high school. i was haunted by dreams of a beautiful woman with long dark hair. and yellow green eyes. i didn’t think much of the dreams. i figured that any guy had them. that is until the dream became real. it was then i having paranormal experiences. for each night i was visited by a presence. at first i thought the family pet a half german shepherd; half lab retriever was crawling into bed with me. but when i turn to scold her. she wasn’t there. and as the time went by. the presence became bolder and layed next to me. and the dreams that i had became sexual in nature. being a teenager and always thinking about sex. i took it as a blessing. and as time went by. i welcome this presence. and learned she was the woman in the dream.
i never told my parents about it. although i suspect they knew. but never pressured me about it. as long as i was happy. that’s what mattered.
i had once brought up about spirits. and can they have sex? i had asked. my father told me about the succubus. that  the church always believed these entities were demonic in nature in the old days. but later ruled them out as being that of the mind.
my mother on the other hand  pretty much knew the reality of spirits. because her family were involved with the paranormal. she had said that at times a spirit would return to a love one. and be with that person.
but no girlfriend that i knew died. and i didn’t bring up the subject anymore. anyway i was enjoying it. this spirit relationship was wonderful.
my relationship with my succubus continued into my adult life. and it never affected my social life. not in a negative way. she was there when a relationship ended. always offering comfort. however my relationship with her started to die down in the 90s. and completely ended after my parents died in 1999.
i wasn’t really interested that much in the paranormal or mysticism and the occult. but when you experience death. and a lost of a phantom lover. you want to know about the subject. so i started reading books on the paranormal as well as shamanism and mysticism; especially the kabbalah. and other books of occultic lore.
then around i 2009 i found a book entitled sexual alchemy by donald tyson. and learned you could actually summon spirits for sex. i read the book with such hunger.  triggered by loneliness. and a need of companionship. at this time i had a streak of bad luck in money as well as love.
so i felt i had nothing to lose. despite my christian background. i had learned there was much more to the world and to the universe. then the polarize poles of good and evil. my mother had taught me that there were other spirits that existed. and they were not all angels and demons.
so i set out to perform a simple ritual based on what the book taught. and had drawn a sigil of the spirit whom i wish to contact with.
so on a friday night i performed the ritual. at first nothing happened. so i closed the ritual. and sat on the bed. and meditated.
no sooner than i did this. i felt a warm presence beside me. on my right side. and in my mind i saw a swirling cloud of light. and the figure of a woman  appearing besides me. it was the same one whom visited me when i was a teenager. and in my vision she embraced me. and then was gone. later that night as i laid in my bed. she appeared to me as an apparition on top of my bed.
later i learned  that she had several  names. however she wanted me to know her at first as Meek. i had also learned that other name among her names was Lilith. but later learned this was a surname. and she was the daughter and  avatar of  Lilith. and she had visited me several times that week.
its been a year now. she my succubus and i are in a relationship of sorts. that my real connection is to her mother Lilith. but was her ‘husband’ because Lilith wished this. i had learned a great deal about her and her sisters. and still have much to learn. what i have learn is this:
what is true is that all succubi most of them were born to Lilith when she went back to Adam when he was separated from Eve for 130 years. and are called by Rabbis as Lilim, Lilivoth, meim,  rauchothim, shedim, sheddahim. and they like humanity are a mixture of good and evil. and they seek reconciliation with the children of Adam. to do this; they have sex with us in our dreams. there is more i wish to say on this matter. but i will write about it later in other posts.
only here i wish to end this post a message to any reader who comes across this blog. i asked the reader to be broad minded. while remaing true to his or her’s convictions. as well as be tolerant.  i write this blog not persuade or dissuade anyone. only to give account of my experience. and the possibility that there exists spirit beings who like us are neither good or evil. and have inspired the legends and myths of shidhes,faeres, djinn, apsaras, etc. peace.